Wednesday, April 30, 2008, 5:27 PM
wth la.
i got friggin pissed today.
mrs chee, she like totally made me super duper sad lorh.
she said i can only attend the next trip to some other place next year.
NEXT YEAR, YOU HEAR THAT.like ive said, bangkok's a bitch.so nice and full of clothes.
and nice stuff.
she said the application or what shit close already.
she said if i had told her a month sooner, it would be muchmuchmuch more better for i would have gotten in.
thats why im sad -
too hopeful liao.but nonetheless, ive still got lovely school to attend to.
OMG. i so forgot to meet mrs koh tadi!
omgomgomgomg. nvm.
anyways, i just decided to blog so i could distress a little.
im not much in a stress.
more of a disappointment cum confusion kinda state.
just now, me and ashhy along with ami.
we went to the hangout spot.
but before we went there.
ashhy got a msg.
it was from whoever the whatever.
the person messaged me when i was otw to sp.
but i couldnt reply.
she messaged qin.
i called the person lah.
she bebual keling.
sialah, that part i was like super fed up lah.
first, she called me a minah - i totally am not, ah girl.
then she act like she dont know who the hell sms`ed me.
like wtf kan.
then i messaged again.
i called.
then the person picked up and asked if i was ashhy.
not blowing the cover, i passed the phone to ashhy.
they talked.
she said got problem with me and dd.
she said she was Dd's girlfriend since two months ago.she mentioned Im and Dna.
walao, DRAG SOMORE PEOPLE LAH.
YOUR MOTHER DONT WANT TO TALK TO ME UH?
fcuk lah. i got so pissed.
i started tearing and cursing.
if you had wanted a clean ending, you should have told me to my face.
guys are such people who i believe are not much of the 'balls' kinda people.
dont ask someone to call me on the phone.
i wont oblige to you request.
you can believe what you want.
just dont make me hate my friend.
or rather, dont FRIEND, dont make me hate him.
oh you nimcompoops!
Labels: winners make commitments; losers make promises.
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008, 9:37 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2008, 5:10 PM
Lyrics : Now You're Gone - Basshunter
damn, i was really bored.
i dont like going online because my whole computer will lag of all the sudden conversations.i suddenly felt a need to hear this song.
dammit .. if only someone would sing this to me.
LIKE NOW.
hhee.
, 12:42 PM
i woke up so early today, but heck, daddy kept the modem. so now, after almost 7 hours of waiting, here i am blogging.
ive been in deep thoughts these few days.since all the commotion have died down a little, i wish to bring it up all back.
i dont know why im thinking like this.
life has never been ever so peaceful since the start of this wishful year.
i want the drama of all of us quarelling to start again.
maybe im being to paranoid in whatever situation i am in now.i just want things to be like how they were before every pathetic soul ended up being in every problem.if chloe knew i was gonna write this shits, she'd be nudging me saying
" annnnnaaaaa, dah, dont world here. cite dah abes buat hal abes luhhh"
but i cant. i think that these problems only arose every since this particular
YOU, was in it.
YOUve lost it manggs.
lost my trust.
lost the friendship.
lost almost everything.
everyone around YOU have been thinking whether being friends with you was fate or was it planned from the beginning.
stop saying that
YOUre sorry.
YOU cant stop time from moving when
YOU apologise.
can
YOU?
YOU couldnt stop rain from falling when
YOU said
YOU were sorry.
sometimes, my heart aches to see how pathetic i am, when im actually able to stand
YOUr bullshits and no end stories.
why am i giving
YOU sympathy?
why are
YOU trying to be me?
orang laen, jangan terase.and i thought I was the bad influence.
theres simply no point in me saying such stuff about
YOU.
ive lost all faith in
YOU.
YOU can brag on
YOUr life for all i care.
YOU can jump down a building all
YOU want.
YOU cant make me suffer all the time.
one day, he'll turn his back on
YOU and say,
" honestly, i was like him all along. Im sorry YOU were too blind to notice that. "Labels: I'll never let you go. Never.
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, 12:04 AM
friday ; 25 april
on friday, 25th april .it was perfectly normal.after school, i went home to get my wood and stuff.went back to school and do up my dnt.went home.got ready.went civics.met izzuan, qin, hsien nan at around 5+.i janji`ed izzuan i meet him at 5.padahal2.study.WAH, izzuan damn patient with me lah.i was like damn slow at catching whatever he said.kesian, lagy2 must teach me more.then we all ate at LJs at around 7+.then my mummy called.she said that my sis booked a table and we were late.after eating we all walked back to civics to wait for my mum's call.izzuan told me ..well isaac, shouldve told me ealier!make me sedeh only.then mummy called at around coming 8.i rushed to orangejulie.met mummy.then went home to fetch daddy.went to eat with the rest.Happy Belated Birthday Jelly.sorry i didnt buy you any presents.were family mah, must understand (:went home.overall, i liked this day (:izzuan belo, you better take care of yourself. Youre a strong boy huh. You better not run away uh, i still need a tutor.dd hunns, i miss you alot too. im sorry im not always in contact with you but im also like this with the rest. i'll try my best to at least call you okay? im sorry.
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Saturday, April 26, 2008, 11:35 PM
ONCE AGAIN, the story of the whore. ( call me bad, i dont mind. )

Caption`ed : Act Cute.
Comments : Seriously, are you for REAL?
Caption`ed : Beautiful Gal
Comments : ER? SIALAH, youre face like constipated sia.

Caption`ed : Sexy .. Its fake.
Comments : Down right its fake. You'll never be sexy DUDE.
These three pictures are found by me just recently.
Because i like happened to pass by her profile.
it seems really like .. y'know .. ewwww .
i dont know why i cant get enough of her.
i just want to bring her down so badly.
or maybe i just love the whole bitching thing.
oh well. look at what she caption`ed.
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, 10:58 PM
oh my god.
today's really boring.
like boring shit manggs.
i met emy at the bus stop at 320.
then we went to
wdlnds.met qin.
ate at LJs.
then met jun.
went to lib.
discuss PJ.
then decided, we slacked.
i called isaac.
woots.
actually want to ask about the schedule but
ended up saying other stuff.heh.
at around 650, qin went home.
me and emy supposingly go down to the interchange but we decided to
walk instead.so we walked.
nice lah.
cause its been a long since me and emy walked together alone and talked.
we looked at the sun set and all.
bestbest.
then it was about 730 that we decided to take the bus home.
we took the last row.
we talked about incidents in the bus from last year till now.
then we did the 'jiwe' kinda promise for some random issues.
went home.
then on comp.
check blog.
reconstructed it.
linked people.
i got the designs already.
in
dire need of the funds and all.
dammit.Dear izzuan, are you okay?
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Thursday, April 24, 2008, 10:10 PM
MAROON 5 LYRICS"Better That We Break"
I never knew perfection till
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…
A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane
The city look so nice from
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears
Its not right, not OK
Say the word it should say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break
Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby.
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, 7:29 PM
some MoFo asked me to update my blog and called me bodoh.
bloody kind freak.
its been kinda boring.
and obviously, im bored to death even with a boyfriend and some other brilliant friends.
not saying that i dont treasure them.
its just been boring.
i would know how to break up the news later.
im just fickle and young.
haha. Dammit.
today (24 april) :had classes as usual.
i knew mummy was going to school to talk to my teachers.
but instead, i was calm enough to allow my mum to make a scene.
i know if i had made a comment, she would turn the whole school upside down.
during maths lesson, i met up with Mdm Toh.
she wasnt very angry like i thought she would be.
she even joked with me.
so it was like a heckcare situation.
during school hours.
kelvin and janson kept teasing me.
they called me GREEN.
no, ive yet to forget.
ikrimah & danial however had to tease me after school.
they too called me GREEN.
Imran kept saying " eehk! noshamenoshame, GREEN "
HAHA.
so whatever, i did the same thing again.
go to the shop after school.
boyfee had some supp lessons.
i was suppose to meet him after that but i was late.
then he was like "janji sket pon tak leh."
i was not pissed lah. i was just a lil irritated.
so i made excuses lah.
which were true.
( i wore some coloured bra today and it was damn obvious)Then boyfee was like indirectly sounding me.
he asked me to cover my front with his bag.
sounded alil too overprotective.
Too bright meh?
hazmir's big mouth.
haha.
hazmir and aidah damn cute lah.
tsktsk.
then we met the rest at the void deck.
went to the lib.
then went to cp.
by then, most of them went home.
then lepak at cp.
then went home.
i need the money lah ! - RANDOM.
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Friday, April 18, 2008, 8:32 PM
Ramdan Rashiddee Yusri. ( dd/dede)im attached.
"
I LOVE YOU" sounds so
cliche.
so i'll just leave it that he's mine and i like him.
((:
thats the latest so far.
will update again (:
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Monday, April 7, 2008, 12:22 AM
I'VE NEVER FELT THIS LOW.
SOMETIMES,I WISH THAT I CAN HATE YOU TO THE DEEPEST CORE SO THAT I CAN HAVE ALL THE STRENGTH TO LEAVE YOU.
but too bad,i just can't because i still love him wholeheartedly.
i called you love a year ago.
youre still my love for a year, a month and 5 days.
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, 12:03 AM
I miss fira alot.
flashbacks ..
because of fira, i met dear hariz.
but on second thought, i wouldnt want to be reminded of the past.
carrying on,
because of fira, i experienced actual happiness.
i was like really happy.
i can recall all the moments i kept calling fira.
haha.
i was troubling her to the extend man.
then she broke up with amin.
i was like fcuking pissed at amin lah.
i wanted to meet him personally y'know.
then tak lame lagy,
they patched.
haha. cute lah kirekn.
FIRAMIN.
bleahhh~
i miss fira! alot.
i know at times when youre sad, you feel like no one's giving a shit about you;
im here.
i miss your laughter especially.
i miss you alot.oh fira, lets meet up someday ((:
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Sunday, April 6, 2008, 11:02 PM
sorry darlings.
sorry i havent been updating.haha (: thanks guys for the compliments towards the post.
i thought no one reads anna's blog.
well. ive been really busy.
busy because ive been needed to do ALOT of chores and assignments.
i cannot balance my schedule that well so i'm reducing my blogging time to doing my school works.
if you'd ask me, i wouldnt wanna post here even if i had time.
well, not that i dont want to post.
i would, but its like im emotionally insane
at the moment so i wouldnt want posts about the things im going through, affecting my blogging style.
you find my reason stupid but im being real honest.
its been hard for me these few days.
because ive been sick.
not only physically but mentally too.
ive never been so stressed out in my life.
just recently, i skipped three periods of lessons in school by staying up in class while everyone's at the learning venue.
i find it oh so not professional that im skipping lessons just to distress myself.
Whatmore, im suppose to be an examplary student.
i too find it selfish that im worrying the others around me.
no one reprimanded me for doing so because they understood the situation.
well, i think my situation is far from serious.
its really minor. but its really affecting everything.
making it a bigbig issue.
Well the main mess was family and work.
then my life added a + FTB bf to commitments and problems.
Like hell, DAMMMIT.bigbig issues makes it hard for me to cope with everything.
i cry almost everyday, always leaving things like unattended to or not finishing it up.
im sorry to trouble those who have helped me along the way.
its as though im coping up with another scene of death.
you may not understand the hell fuck im talking about.
but im happy i didnt talk nonsensically like i always do.
at least this post proves something to some people and makes people understand.
"Oh Anna , shut the lame emo crap. OR Anna, youre making me confuse."
sorry. well, you'll have to be in my shoes to understand me.Im not being an emoshit.
im learning to stand on my two feet, you scums.
It's gonna get harder but im willing to let go and give it a try.
Thank you dear ones for standing by me.
Family:
- I HOPE ALL GETS WELL SOON.
- I WANT TO PROVE IM GOOD.Work:
- I'LL BE ABLE TO COPE YOU SON OF A BITCH.
- STOP JUDGING ME.Boy:
- I'LL WAIT, DONT WORRY.oh, and hey, fuck you evil creatures.
you can look down on me now.
we'll see who'll bother to catch you when youre falling down.
((:
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