Today i blog, why? Because suddenly, i'm not lazy. Why? Because i went to my friend's email to retrieve something, but i ended up reading something else. This led me to the subject's blog. Which led me to this post.
, caused a serious stir and i believe right now, I have every possible right to malign or rather just bust you out of your own world right now.
Dear readers, kindly read the email below.
From: Mira Kerns (email@example.com)
To: Naz (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Date: Sun, 10 May 2009 10:59:27 +0800
Hey Nazjayy. Mira here. Since your blog had no tagboard, i guess this is the best place for me to ask you this.
Okay, i've read your postsss lately. About you, your lectures, friends, shisha, mr jellyfish. Those pictures. Beautiful pictures. I'm just wondering, do you still loved your mr jellyfish? No, this has got nothing to do with Khidhir. It's just that i've read your posts and i'm curious.
Don't worry, i'm cool with this, and of course i will respect what you'll say.
nurul nazira (email@example.com)
12 May 2009
Mira kerns (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Amirah, you dont
know how it feels to wait for someone like khid for dont know how many years.
my life at secondary school is all about HIM. nothing else.
this is soo
da perna terjadi kinda thing.
he was with me when im sec 2 and then 4days
later he was with khamelia and i gave in and didnt talk to him for almost 1year
and we got back and i got to know he is contacting aisyah and then he said sorry
and aisyah siad something like' naz, i really dont know what to say to you but
youre so strong and HOW CAN YOU TAHAN THIS LIAR?!'
after some time he
contacted fida, MY BESTFRIEND but cant blame fida because she didnt know i was
till now khid wouldnt want to admit his mistakes to me and i doubt
he said sorry to aisyah.
i forgive him after soo many things he did to me.
after how many buckets of tears!
i never treated our relationship so
strong or i love him soo much kinda thing after that incidents.
he was the
one saying promises and made me believed him so much because he kept saying he
is a changed person.
oh by the way thats his favourite phrase(:
promise me that he will be my husband and yada yada yada did he told you
khid is like my brother, my bestfriend, my boyfriend and my everything
i was close to his family? and he was close to the people i love, my maid
and sisters and cousins and aunties.
i was afraid that to tell my parents
about him but they knew that i was with him, so dumb of me!
and i thought
they got mad but they were ok.
we gone trough quite alot and i never blame
you for this. i think im just tooo straight? and cannot take it kinda girl
he once said that whatever happens, we will make things better and
sooner or later we will be back together again.
mira, I NEVER EVER SAID THAT
NOT EVEN ONCE!
the only mistake is i wrote 'naz love khid, we'll be back' at
the deck of eiffel tower.
he was the one making promises and then leave me
because of what?! he wants to go ITE?!
i never looked down on that, never
i think that time we were both very angry at each other and if he is
very angry he can say may mean things ala same like me ah haha.
just know him like 4-5 months and still want to know more about him.
might want to ask khamelia or wirda or aisyah about khid and see if they laugh
or maybe just roll their eyes.
or maybe they will go , 'ARE YOU SERIOUS YOURE
WITH THAT BUGGER!?!?!' or maybe they wont talk to you like how they did to
i dont know why i still love him, i just cant hate him!
i might be
the cruel one telling people that i hated khid yada yada yada but i know he knew
that i never mean it.
its just hard to let him off! ugh!
i knew him long
time ago since he was in primary6 and theres toooo many things i know about him
that made me soo pissed off because i should have not know him but i never
regreted knowing him.
actually ive been wanting to see you long time ago but
i dont want to because i think this will just end soon.
BUT IM SOOO SOOOO
WRONG because its not ending, not even close to ending!
and i thought if i
were to meet you things will get even worse.
you tell me how to forget about
i sleep, there will be two things lying on bed that he bought for
i wake up go toilet i remembered him saying that he doesnt like me using
dove shampoo because got babi oil haha damn mrepek! and i changed to his
i go to the room and change i wear his perfume he bought for
i want to go to school, im wearing the bag he bought for me.
soooo cold inside the studio i wear his FOX jacket.
i want to eat mc donalds
i remembered his favourite burger and order mc spicy straight away!
library i remembered we used to study together and he will study hard for me and
i go home in the train i saw couples, like want to slap their
i go reach home i cook/bake i remembered he used to come over my house
just to taste my muffins.
the routine is the like that everyday.
cannot cry already la too many tears already come out, now da kering.
want you to try put your shoes into mine.
what if you waited for someone for
donkey years and he treated you like trash, go to this girl, to that girl and
then say sorry and then you waited again because he said he found his love and
then he came back to you and then leading a happy life and then suddenly CRASHHH everything fall just like that?
not only that, he even mentioned that he wont
go find any girls after you and will love you forever and will tell his kids
that he love only one girl which is you.
i had nothing after khid and try
sooooo hard to move on but i just cant.
when i go out with those guys i
blogged about, we talk mostly about khid.
and they will get tired of me and
leave me but im sooo cool with that because they mean nothing to me.
la because till now im not talking to khamelia, aisyah or whoever he was with,
its just sad.
and if you ask me if i love him or not?
maybe you should
know my answer already.
so you tell me is this like history going to repeat
himself? and if you were to ask me if i am waiting for him or not??
my life is always about waiting and if people say im the bad girl yada yada yada
you can see how patient/nice i am with this guy named muhammad khidhir.
other than all those bad things happened he was nice to me, very patient too, he
never fails to make me smile and can meet me up anytime when im down. he will be
the first person to hear my cryings and the next day he bought my starbucks and
brought me to swensens just to make me happy.
so yeah happy 3months with
To Nazira Jaaffar
I love fat people, really. Sumpah demi ALLAH. I admire their
courage or rather their ignorance to what others might comment. I believe
they're very beautiful people. But somehow rather, i find you only beautiful on
the outside. Wait, I don't find you beautiful at all.
Please la Nazira, even if you wanted to malign
Amirah, you didn't have to be such a B to write it on your blog right? You just
want everyone to know of your problem.
WTF, so what if Amirah's only 15? She's still
human like you, she's matured enough to think like you too. So don't belittle
others just because you're just a little older.
And you freaking claim you
don't love Khid? "i dont know why i still love him, i just cant hate him!" Who
are you trying to prove? Amirah totally doesn't deserve this.
She didn't give a hoot on your feelings
towards Khid, if only you hadn't psycho her with your little fairytale secondary
love life story, she wouldn't even be bothered of you.
Stop it Nazira, you're old enough, and you're
already elsewhere while Khid is still in school. And unfortunately for you, he
has a girlfriend who can't be bothered with his past.
You think posting a
conversation of Khid and you will solve everything?
Don't perasaan ke bye-bye if you'd think
Amirah Binte Zainal Abidin would keep visiting your blog because she cares so
much for your sorry life.
It's because of your email that taunts her. Your
email that made her feel that you were much more inferior.
Amirah minds her own business. So stop acting
like you're all innocent and nice. I know you've bitched about people. And it's
not just then, you still bitch about people. And that doesn't entitle you to
such rights to be respected.
Don't think everyone will love you, i kow you
never mentioned this but just some guidance to your sorry life, give some
respect before you can actually earn the respect from other. I'm sorry that you
weren't disciplined on this enough to know it (:
Please jangan ganggu Amirah lagi. My grammar
may have gotten erratic but seriously, back off.
Dah, i didn't need to open my eyes that big to
notice how ugly you are.
But before anyone starts hating you, i hope
that beneath all that drama and criticism, you're still a wonderful young lady
who your friends really adore.
And Nazira, I don't hate you. Don't piss me
Okay, now it's my turn; have a good life ahead